I want to be able to trust you. I want to be able to give myself to you, because I think that’s what you deserve. I want to be able to love you the way you should be loved. You’re beautiful, in a lot of ways. I just want to tell you though, I still love him. I will always love him. He will always be a huge part of my life and the first person I ever loved. I’m not telling you this to discourage you or to imply that I will always pick him, I just want to warn you. For a long time, he will still come first…but if you become to person that pushes him to second, you’re going to stay first and I won’t look back.

You’ve just got to understand, I don’t want to hurt you and that has never been my intention with anyone in my life. I want to tell you this because I do love you so. I want to tell you this because he’s still home to me, he’s the only one who didn’t throw me away, even if he might be doing it a little bit now. I can’t be the one that just gets thrown away anymore.