I have come to the conclusion that in all technical sense, I do believe in God. I do not call him that because I feel that people use this "God" to further their own agendas, but instead of owning up to it, they say that it was someone else's intention. They say that something larger than themselves is what is fueling their hatred. If there is this person, this man called God, he was forgiving and not judgemental. If he was, then I would not in any way call him a higher being.
I believe that he believed in equality.
I believe that he wanted this world to be filled with beauty.
I believe he was the most loving person in this world.
I believe he was accepting of all.

I believe he was love and that is why he is the higher power.

I have also come to the conclusion that I do not believe in "sin." I believe that if you continue to further yourself as a person, if you continue to learn each and every day from your mistakes and from others then you will go to what some people like to call heaven. As long as you further your development and do not discontinue your learning, then you will lead another life after your death. Or else I think you will continue in another body until enlightenment, somewhat like Buddhist religion.

I have come to the conclusion that I do not believe in what I believe in in the hopes of death being less frightening. I am not afraid of death. I am afraid of not living up to my full potential.

I have more to write but I guess I'll edit it later.
I hope that this is helpful to someone...someday...maybe.