I know things now that I did not know before. So, this is growing up. It’s a little scary to know all of the things that I know now, it’s a little frightening to have the perception of the world that I do have. These epiphanies, these revelations have turned me in to the girl that I am and I can not stand here and tell you that this girl is so happy and mature. She is just the same as the rest of you, she just knows more than a good majority of the people in this town. I do believe that too, wholeheartedly. Though I am young, I have lived and I know this world. I know these people and I know the truth about things in this world. I have faith, but that faith is based on something that is inside of me, and not the opinions of my peers and elders. I have opinions but they are not based on my parents. As Chuck Palahniuk said, “I am the combined effort of everyone I’ve ever known,” and I am. I know things now, many wonderful and terrible things and they are based on all of the thing people I know have taught me through those experiences that we have so vividly experienced. I am at a loss as to whether I am happy or disappointed, I suppose I am just this content that everyone speaks of. I suppose I am just human and that is all I will ever be, I’m not really sure what else I expected.